As of now though I have been brought face to face with the reality of it all. Not only is the decision resting heavy on my heart its coming closer to having to make it. In the beginning I was hopeful with the possibility that Tanner would be healed. After visiting the specialist I had a new found hope. With the swelling going down so much I felt a sense of ease that all will be well with my baby.
But as I continually mark down each day and the day of truth comes closer and closer I am getting ever more worried. As of yesterday Tanner started limping... we gave him some bute which helps relieve pain. When I went out there today he was still limping. This isn't a good sign. Also there is heat in his leg which means the injury is still very prevalent. I'm worried that this next month of waiting is all for waste... I called the vet leaving a message.
The question remains is a month enough to heal this injury or am I just putting off the inevitable fact that Tanner is terminally broken....
My heart is breaking with this question. Hope is harder to find in the darkness of this reality.
